cries that unheard by others

my life feels like candy now...

sometime it's too sweet

sometime it can be bitter

but it creates a deep emotions 

that can't be described as in words.

too much to say that I can only write

on a piece of paper 

then let it go

to find its place.

many feeling comes in one shot

there's a pain,joy,sadness and disappointment

wash all over my face

I tried to hide it so that

people won't see me as weak as they think

every night i have a regret

that everything is just a lie

a lie

that hurts every inch of my hearts

i can't deny neither change it

it just happen

all over and over again

sometimes if I'm too closed

eventually there's a bee sound behind my back

damn it!

I hate to hear it every single day

I'm tired of it!

can you please stop?

so that I wont have to sleep in fury?

I'm begging you

do look at me

like I'm a normal person

not some kind of kids 

friends are many

but true friends are even none

friends in advance

kinda a lot to find

as well as

backstabber

hate to see those kind of people

dear people
please be nice

so that my impression to you

will change

sooner or later

I might not perfect

but I'm looking forward to it

there's a time

where I want to see them

so much

i feel excited as it had been planned 

to be true

eventually i came

and there's nothing

i feel like a damn liar

just make my day ruins

all day long

how could YOU be so selfish?

how can I consider you a human?

since that day,

i  believed that

people do always

take something for granted

I  hate you people!

don't ever let me see your face again

otherwise

don't blame me if I had to make you suffer

BUT
there's a voice

that run inside my head

advice me

to be a forgiven person

forgive him!

forgive her!

by doing that,

you will feel

eternally peace...

BUT

it's true?

by giving a forgiveness

you will have no regret

in everyday life

you will fill the emptiness of your  hearts

with lots of love

that come

from people I loved the most

People who know to recognise me as 

their

LOVER

FRIENDS 

SOUL MATE

BFF

ADULTS

as it is true??

it's for real??

I do hope someday

there's true...

created by, tira.:)